Thinking about feeling

It is a curious fact that the hospital I go to infantalizes it's patients. Choices are not given. Little is explained. One is ordered around.This has pushed me into a child like response, heightened my fright of the radiotherapy machine and diminished some of my adult thinking. It has also had the unexpected result of what I believe is the release of childhood feelings related to my rather loveless upbringing. It is good to realise that not all this weight of feeling comes from having cancer.